It’s been a challenging week. I’ve been unwell. The medication hasn’t helped at all. Despite my best intentions to lean on God and hand it all over to Him, it’s wearing me down. I’ve been niggly and impatient, and that’s meant an unhappy husband too. Right when I need to avoid stress, my attitude creates more stress!
Plus we had a minor household disaster that sounds like something from a slapstick sit-com, but was scary at the time – the leg of the bed went right through the bedroom floor in the middle of the night, when we were both in bed. Turns out that under the carpet, the upstairs flooring is very cheap boards that aren’t really up to code standards. Now the house is 30 years old and the weight of the bed has been pressing on that same spot for every single day of those 30 years, the board gave way. Can’t help wondering what’s next!
I’d been praying for guidance about whether we should move. I think I got it! God is always good, and He always answers prayer.
I read Psalm 38 last night, where David is asking God for help with an illness.
10 All my longings lie open before you, Lord;
my sighing is not hidden from you.
21 LORD, do not forsake me;
do not be far from me, my God.
22 Come quickly to help me,
my Lord and my Savior.
He knows what I want. He also knows what I need. He knows what I need healing from, spirits of rebellion and selfishness and discontent, just as much as physical healing.
Lord, help me to open my heart and mind and body fully to You, so You can heal all that is not love and obedience to Your will. Help me to trust that You will help and heal me. You are faithful and You keep Your promises. Thank You that You are good and You will lovingly care for me. Help me hear Your guidance, to keep my heart and mind open to You. Help me to obey Your ways. Thank You!