I’m waiting for test results to come in for some unusual health issues I’ve been having. The results won’t be in until next week, and I’m not finding waiting easy! Now I know why God made my word for the year, “Surrender”!
Talking to God about it this afternoon, and this prayer came out:
Please help me to hand all this over to You Lord. Help me to focus on You and Your mercy, grace, and love. Help me to focus on Your healing power. Help me to release to You whatever in me is contributing to or worsening this condition. Help me to let go of all that is not love, any unconfessed sin, any pockets of rebellion.
Help me to truly be surrendered to Your will, no matter what that is. If it is Your will that I be healed, help me to surrender to that. If it is Your will that I live with these symptoms, like Paul’s thorn, help me to be surrendered to that. If it’s Your will that something else is going on here that might need treatment, help me to surrender to that. In all things, Your will be done.
I need to be still before You. I need to focus on Your love. I need to hear You, not my anxious thoughts rushing around like hyped-up hamsters on a treadmill. I know You have a plan and a purpose for me. I know You love me and only want the best for me. But this waiting is hard.
Thank You for supporting me as I wait, and through whatever happens.